֍Death֍

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Warning for: Sexual content, Light gore, Transphobia, Suicidal ideation, Depression, Self-harm, all that good stuff

̻̻̻̻̻̻̻̻ fuckِِِِِِ offِ and die؂؂֍֍ there is nothing ː ro̊̊̊̊̊̊̊̊̊̊̊̊̊må̊̊nt̊̊̊̊ic ːaboutʺʺʺ wanting to die˸˸.
​ I want(ed)̿ to die depression is kind of a bitch (crazy take ik). it hit me real hard. there is no sugar-coating it, I wanted to kill myself. I wanted to slit my wrist, I wanted simply to stop existing

for a while, I wasn't sure about it. I didn't feel good, sure, but ̸so did eve̸̸̸ryo̸ne else, right? In a way, my ͋͋͋depression-d͋͋͋enial so̸unds a l̴o̷t̷ like how I started denying my transexuality. "I mean yah, I would li̸ke to know ho̼̼̼w it ̻feels to h̸a̶ve ̸a vagina, but that's just regular curiosity, everyone experiences that"*1 to "Sure, if I were given to option t̼̼̼o pres̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉̉s a button and magically turn into a woman I would at least try right? As long as I could go back, of course." to then "I mean, I guess I would still press̼̼̼ said magical button⃫⃫⃫ i̻̻̻̻̻f there was only a 50/50 chance I'd get to come back to being a male" to "Honestly I wouldn't mind𓐶 being a wom̼̼̼an" and finally resolving to "ok. I might be a woman"
*1 turns out, that was my brain wondering how it felt to be a woman, didn't actually wanna have a pussy, tbh I'm fine with a dick.

"sure, I sometimes think about how people would react to my death, but so does everyone"
"I wouldn't mind not waking ů̊̊̊p tomorrow."
"I'm honestly not˓ sure if I'm going to be here ne̊̊̊xt week."̻ "I want to die."

It's always an option, always tomorrow. where am I?

BLEED

I hate the label "depression". What is that? A disease? I don't feel like a sick person. I've been sick before, I've had fevers, I've had infections. This is not it. This is deeper, this is consuming me. so you stay in bed, barely moving, staring at the ceiling.
do returns always diminish?